I wanted to write this in regards of a particular issue that I’ve noticed. Lately, I have taken notice of how I act, whenever someone does anything that could be considered more “outstanding” than me. It’s getting to a point where I get so enraged, and scared that I start to get very severe panic attacks.
a very noticeable fear of mine, is the fear of losing my value - I don’t wanna be bad at drawing, yet it’s getting harder and harder to find the motivation to practice. And as a result, I attempt to draw anything that I think could be decent - however, it ends up looking like a self-portrait a 1st grader made.
I really don’t want this to continue, and I don’t really know how to ask for help without sounded like a deranged individual.
Acting like that will never give me an artistic advantage, it only promotes a toxic mindset that nobody wants to have.
Just wanted to get this off my chest before summer starts.